Mending...unending.

Some days it seems ok.
Some days it is very manageable.
Other days the pain is overwhelming,
And some days I wonder if I will ever feel anything
Except pain...and failure.

Some moments are wonderful,
I forget how much it hurts.
Some moments everything seems to go right,
And I forget all that is wrong.
Other moments I feel so much,
I am afraid that my heart might explode.
Other moments it feels as though someone is trying
To rip my heart out from my chest.

There will be more of both days,
More of both moments.
Some days my heart will leap for joy,
Others it will cower and be wrenched with pain.

Today it is full of pain and sorrow.
The mending process is slow today,
And I wish it could just be done....for both of us.