Vindicated

Vindicated, The Dashboard Confessional

Hope, dangles on a string;
Like slow-spinning redemption,
Winding in and winding out,
The shine of it has caught my eye.
And roped me in,
So mesmerizing,
So hypnotizing.
I am captivated.
I am

Vindicated.
I am selfish,
I am wrong,
I am right, I swear I'm right.
Swear I knew it all along.
And I am flawed,
But I am cleaning up so well.
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself.

So clear, like the diamond in your ring.
Cut to mirror your intention,
Over-sized and overwhelmed.
The shine of which has caught my eye.
And rendered me
So isolated,
So motivated.
I am certain now that I am

Vindicated.
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right.
Swear I knew it all along.
And I am flawed,
But I am cleaning up so well.
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself.

So turn,
Up the corners of your lips,
Part them and feel my fingertips
Trace the moment for forever.
Defense is paper thin,
Just one touch,
And I'd be in too deep now
To ever swim against the current.
So let me slip away,
So let me slip away,
So let me slip away,
So let me slip,
Against the current.
So let me slip away,
So let me slip away,
So let me slip away,
So let me slip away....

Vindicated.
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right.
Swear I knew it all along.
And I am flawed,
But I am cleaning up so well.
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself.

Like hope, dangles on a string;
Like slow-spinning redemption.
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Each time I walk the beach, this song comes to mind. My first visit out here to California, I had these lyrics running through my mind as I sat alone on the beach at 8AM after my surfing lesson.

This song is very close to my heart, and I only just discovered it at the beginning of the summer. Every time I hear this song on my ipod or computer, I have to repeat it, at least once, to let the lyrics sink in.

Hope...is here. It always has been. At times it may have only been a small spark, but it has always been right here, and it always will be. And I will always look for it and hold it close to my heart.

I am vindicated. And I am selfish, and I might be wrong--but I know I am right. I knew what was right all along. I am FLAWED, but I am cleaning up so well--like a diamond in the rough, long lost. Trampled underfoot, buried and left for lost. I may be isolated, but I am motivated, and I will not be lost again.

My defenses may not be paper thin...not in every respect--but definitely in some ways. But my defenses have dropped so very much, the walls have come down so far....I want to slip away, with the pull of the current. Wherever that takes me, I have hope that it will help me continue to grow...I have hope it will take my flaws and slowly buff them out, like the stones as they meet the shore.

I am seeing those things that some of you have said to me....some of those things that I have never been able to see before. Thank you, for helping me see.

And now hope...dangles on a string, like slow spinning redemption. So clear, so present, so a part of my heart and soul.

I am vindicated.