Sometimes Goodbye's the Only Way...

I am faced with some disappointment...in various things...people. I am doing my best to not dwell in that disappointment, but today it is difficult.

It is a Linkin Park kind of day. I am dwelling with two of their songs: "Shadow of the Day" and "New Divide." I feel that at this moment they start to capture what I am hiding inside.

New Divide--Linkin Park

I remembered black skies all around me,
The lightning all around me.
I remembered each flash
As time began to blur.
Like a startling sign
That fate had finally found me.

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve.

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide.

There was nothing inside
The memories left abandoned.
There was nowhere to hide.
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing.

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve.

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Across this new divide.

And every loss and every lie
And every truth that you deny
And each regret and each goodbye
Was a mistake too big to hide.

And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve.

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it fill up to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ysSxxIqKNN0

Shadow of the Day--Linkin Park

I close both locks below the window.
I close both blinds and turn away.
Sometimes solutions aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you.
And the sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray.
And the sun will set for you.

Cards and flowers on your window.
Your friends all plead for you to stay.
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes goodbye's the only way.

And the sun will set for you.
And the sun will set for you.
And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray.
And the sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray.
And the sun will set for you.

And the shadow of the day,
Will embrace the world in gray.
And the sun will set for you.

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0nx1rN-EuA

I am dealing a lot with new divides...how to handle them, how to accept them. Some divides are necessary, and some have been carved out where I wish they had not been. I am tired of feeling like the only one reaching out...I am tired of feeling like there is no honesty, no openness.

And the shadows...both day and night, I find lovely--but lonesome at times. I know there are shadows in all of us. I just wish that some were not so painful...I wish they all were the quiet, pensive shadows I like to dwell in.

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple. Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple....and sometimes goodbye is the only way.

How do you know when goodbye is the only way?