I Can Break And Take It With A Smile

Bend and Not Break
Dashboard Confessional

I catalog these steps now--
Decisive and intentioned,
Precise and patterned specifically to yours.
I'm talented at breathing,
Especially exhaling,
So that my chest will rise and fall with yours.

I'm careful not to wake you,
Fearing conversation.
It's better just to hold you,
And keep you pacified.
I'm talented with reason,
I cover all the angles.
I can fail before I ever try.

Try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make,
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away.
Won't you hold me now (I will not bend, I will not break)
Won't you hold me now (I will not bend, I will not break)

I am fairly agile,
I can bend and not break.
Or I can break and take it with a smile.
And I am so resilient,
I recover quickly.
I'll convince you soon that I am fine.

Try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make,
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away.
Won't you hold me now (I will not bend, I will not break)
Won't you hold me now (For you I rise, for you I fall)

Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you.
Just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you.

Try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make,
And I'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away.
So won't you hold me now?
Won't you hold me now?
Now, now, now, now.
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This came on my ipod alarm this morning...I have heard it before, and keep thinking to write about it, but have been forgetting about it or have just been too busy. Nonetheless, here are my thoughts...

I understand this song very well...there is this feeling of wanting to do everything possible to please someone else, to do whatever it takes to be what they need...changing all you have to, just to be what someone else wants you to be. but then comes the distance...of pushing all that's good away, because it is out of your control.

I am talented with reason....I do cover every angle...and there are times I definitely fail before I even let myself try. I have been so ruled by logic, over-thought so many things, it's what I know best.

I can bend and not break--and i will recover quickly, convince you that I am fine--because that is what you will need me to be.

Today I discovered that my desire to help another person--to care for another person, is great than my desire to care for or help myself.

And that made me sad...because I want someone to feel the same way about me.

I can break and take it with a smile...it's one thing I am very good at. Extremely good at.

Someone won't hold me now...

I could be precise and patterned just to you....but can you return the favor?