All Caught Up...

Ok, so now I am finally all caught up on my past blogs, so I feel that now I can take the time to get in-depth with all that has gone on...which has been a lot.

Right now, I am so stressed out. Remember that chair I was done with? Well, I am not totally done with it. I have to go back and change a few things...which I am really not happy about, but I will do it anyway. I can't wait to let the chair go...and with it all the crazy sewing projects that I will never do again.

I am trying to create some positive energy to outweigh the negativity of that chair...but I have not been successful thus far. It will come, and it will be ok. There is nothing I can do about it in this moment, so I am not going to worry about it. I just have to remember that whatever happens, this silly chair is not going to ruin my life. If it spontaneously combusts and my client is beyond livid, I will still come home to my kids who love me and my Ryan who loves me. The world will still turn, my life will still go on. It will not be the end of the world if it is not perfect.

Now I just have to remember all that...

And remember that I want to create things...I love building, I love crafting, I love creating...but I don't want to do it for anyone else. I want to do it for myself, in my own time line, for whomever I want to do it for. The closer January gets, the more excited about accounting I get...weird, right?

A quick update on Joker Kitty--she is doing well. It seems her lip is a lot better! I am debating continuing the meds, since it has become super difficult to get her to swallow the pills. I will see how it looks tomorrow. But all in all, she is looking great!!

It seems like Sora has put on a little weight, which is great! He is always so skinny, I like it when he bulks up a bit. It's probably because he has had close to a cup of treats a day....crazy little man!

I have this whole week off from TCS. My time with Jack has come to an end, and so has my time at the Rec Center. So now, TCS is my only job! (Not counting that silly chair....) It will be nice to have free time...especially since I need to finish getting ready for Christmas!!

Well, I think that is about all for now! Time to dream of Christmas and fun things!!

Home Again, Home Again...

Wow..as usual, time flies.

We just got back from my brother's wedding, and it was fun, beautiful and amazing. We had a great time...and even got some relaxing in.

It feels good to be back home, in some ways. It really was nice to get away for a while, to leave everything behind and to not have to deal with work or such things...

But I did miss my kids very much, and so it is great to be back with them. I will write more on the wedding later, but I am going to start by trying to get caught up on all my blog posts...

Merry Christmas!! It is only 5 days away!!

The Day After...

The day after "happily ever after," at least for my brother and his new *wife.* ;-)

It was a lovely day...we slept in, ate a late breakfast with Chad and Patrick, then met up with everyone to watch Scott and Vanessa open their presents. The only downfall of the day was that we did not get out to Joshua Tree, as we had hoped we would have time to do.

But it was great to spend some down time with family, and Ryan and I got to spend some time relaxing in the hot tub after we got back to our hotel...which was wonderful. Ryan jumped into the pools as well--but I thought that they were just a bit chilly...

As Scott and Vanessa start their journey as husband and wife...today being their first full day...I can't help but think of Bright Eye's This is the First Day of my Life....

A Wedding...

Congratulations to Scott and Vanessa!! I can't believe that today is finally the day!!

As always, it seems like just yesterday you guys got engaged...only months ago you met...but in reality it has been years...

I wish you all many many blessing and a life filled with love and joy.

May no one know more happiness than you two!

California...Here We Come...

Today we leave for California!!

I am so excited...I can't wait for the whole weekend...especially the getting away part...

So...sleepy time, then airplane time!!

Yay!!

So Much To Do...

I can't believe that tomorrow we leave for Cali...wow. Time flies...like a bat out of hell sometimes!!

I have so much to do...I am finishing up altering my dress, hemming Dianne's dress...picking up last minute everything that we need, and I still have to pack!!

So much to do...so little time, as always. But it will all be worth it when we get there!!

Done and Done...

I finished the chair today...and dropped it off!! I am so glad that it is out of my life...

When I am happy after everything is done and dropped off, I feel like I could do it again. Like it's all worth it to see the final product and to see how happy they are to get it back.

But, I have to remember that it's really not. Totally not.

I need every shred of my sanity that I have left...and I am not wasting it on other people...

;-)

I Can't Do This...

I just can't.

I can't do this anymore.

My head, my heart, my soul...are all bound when I try to do this sort of thing for work. I feel empty, drained, .lifeless.

I can't do this anymore. I want a better life for myself...

I love doing this sort of thing...but I want to do it for me...not for anyone else.

I just have to learn to say no...

NO.

No more.

Sorry.

I Remember Now...

...why I can't do this anymore.

I remember why I gave up this line of work...it is all so clear now...

I remember the long nights, the endless hours, the countless questions and unending doubts...

I remember the ego blows and dwindling self-esteem...

I remember why I had to leave...

And why I have to stay away.

This Week...

This week is going to be another crazy one. I have to finish re-upholstering a chair on top of work and prepping everything for the wedding.

I hate it when I do this to myself. I might *sometimes* have a tendency to overload myself with work...say yes to too many things...then end up working too much. But only sometimes...maybe.

So, whatever happens--I know that time marches on. So if one day is terrible, the next day is still on its way, and it can be better than the last!

All I can do is cross my fingers, and hope that this week isn't too trying...